i feel so lonely, so fucking alone, its getting me mad, quite mad, psycho if we can say, all I can say is that a dream alot that when im older, i would kill someone then kill myself, before doing it i was screaming THE SOCIETY MADE ME LIKE THIS' YOU MADE THE FUCKING MONSTERS, DONT FUCKING SAY I WAS NOT RIGHT IN THE HEAD BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL NOT RIGHT IN THE END, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO BE OUTCAST, TREATED AS THE UGLIEST MAN ALIVE AND BE BEATEN ALOT IN MY DAMN CHILDHOOD YOU GODDAMN PARASITE YOU MAKE ME SICK!!!!!....

this dreams comes back alot -sigh- and its so true, why me, why must i suffer, ho dont judge too fast and say theres people with worst thing than you, WELL THAT PROVES MY POINT ABOUT THE DREAM, so much suffering, dont compare me to anyone else, it just make things worst, my mind darker, my sanity weaker